In nine more days, Elias will have been gone for three years. I don't even know what to say. Most of the world thinks I should "be over it" already. But what I've found is that there are a handful of really incredible people, loss AND non-loss people, who fully support my continued need to remember and honor my first born son. The rest? Well, there's just no room for them in my life anymore. I've filled it with supportive, loving, and inspirational people.
I miss this space - blogging and keeping up with others' blogs. But some of my favorite loss bloggers have gone on to shutting their blogs down as their journeys have evolved. (Or they aren't blogging about loss anymore but about rainbow babies or crafts or recipes, etc. etc.)
I see myself following suit eventually (not blogging about rainbows and crafts but just shutting it down, as I share plenty on other social media outlets anyway!).
But I do have to say I will miss some of the connections I've made here where people aren't on Facebook for me to stay connected with.
At any rate.
I don't think I'm ready to process three years yet.
How do I get there?
I've been so slammed at work and with trying to keep everything in balance between family, kids, marriage, friendships, hobbies. I just hope Elias knows how much I love him, that even if I'm not here in this space writing and reading that I AM thinking about him, every single day.
My forever baby.
My first born son.
I still want to find more to do in his honor.