Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Every Night

Every night I ask Elias to visit me in a dream and let me know that he's okay, that he loves me, that he isn't angry, that he's at peace. Every night I fail to dream of him, and when I wake up my heart is broken all over again.


  1. I'm so sorry girl. I've only had just one dream of my Caroline so far. In the early days after her passing I took so much ambien at night that I didn't dream at all when I probably would have the most. Much love to you.


  2. I'm in the same boat. I've wanted so badly to dream of my son and never have. I know a lot of other BLMs who haven't dreamt of their babies as well, so you certainly are not alone.

  3. I wish for those dreams too, but haven't had one. Someone on the boards once said that maybe it's because they (Elias and Vivienne) know that it would be too painful for us to wake up from, and they're trying to shield us from that pain.

    Elias does love you (very much!), he isn't angry, and he's at peace. I know you know that, but thought you could use a reminder!

  4. Ugh. I have never dreamt of Camille. I remember my dreams. I dream a lot... Never of her. How could our baby who we think of constantly not come to us in dreams??? I wish you could dream of Elias. Sending love.