Saturday, September 24, 2011
Really, God? You let these women bring home healthy twins?
My anger is flaring up these days. I just want to say, w...t...f? Why were these two women able to birth and bring home (or, in one case, birth AT home...) two healthy twins only to cut their lives so short? Any time I say to myself that I must not be LUCKY enough or SPECIAL enough to be a mother to living twins, I'm going to remind myself of these stories...These women certainly are NOT special people. They certainly weren't "deserving" of twins, any more than I (or any of you) was UNdeserving. There's no deserving or not deserving, special or not special, it's just the toss of the dice, I guess. I've been thinking a lot about how loss is not evenly parceled out, and I will write more on that later. But articles like these, they get me to a whole new level of angry. You know what else they do? They affirm to me that there IS NO "PLAN". That THINGS DO NOT HAPPEN FOR A REASON! THERE IS NO REASON FOR THESE SAD EXCUSES OF HUMAN BEINGS TO HAVE HEALTHY TWINS WHILE SO MANY OF US WANTED OURS WITH EVERYTHING IN US AND WOULD HAVE BEEN CARING COMPETENT LOVING PARENTS TO THEM IF GIVEN THE CHANCE TO HAVE THEM BOTH HERE WITH US ON EARTH. WHAT COULD THE REASON BE TO JUSTIFY HAVING ANY OF THIS BE PART OF A PLAN? I need to stop before I say something that really pisses someone off. I think these articles speak for themselves, anyway. They speak to me, "This world is chaos. Complete and utter chaos." http://news.yahoo.com/11-month-old-twins-die-being-left-bathtub-143618085.html http://www.ksee24.com/news/local/Mother-Kills-Twin-Babies-Shortly-After-Birth-Hides-Bodies-in-Laundry-Bin-129957793.html